Darcy Grace is new to her walk with Jesus. She’s only 29 years old and she has lived two-thirds of her life numbed by addiction. “I was 10 years old when I first used meth and weed. In my 20’s I started drinking. My mom died from her addiction a year ago. It goes without saying that I didn’t have stability growing up, living in and out of Foster care since I was 10. Five years ago I was arrested for violent acts and terrorist threats. The person I used to be is just so different.”
If this sounds random – it is. Darcy admits that her memories are a jumbled mess, filled with pain and conflicting perspectives. Yet, when she describes her first encounter with God, she recalls every detail. “I had been in the program only 3 months. I remember we were praying. The room was hot and noisy. All I kept hearing in my head was a Voice saying, ‘Surrender, surrender, surrender.’ I recall being really uncomfortable. Everyone around me was praising God, lifting their arms to Him, saying ‘Jesus’ a lot. I could feel my heart racing so much that I got up and left the room, but His voice followed me. It was confusing at first because it felt like I was talking to myself, only I wasn’t sounding like me. I heard, ‘Why didn’t you surrender?’ I didn’t sleep well that night. I was still hearing His Voice no matter what I was doing. In the morning the women met for devotions like we always do. Chaplain Esther was speaking, sharing Scripture, and I just knew that every word she was sharing seemed to be speaking directly to my heart. I couldn’t stay still. I fell to my knees in front of everybody, praying to God in ways I never had before. It felt like I was on fire; warm, tingly, and very emotional. I asked Jesus into my heart that morning.”
When Darcy shares her experience, her eyes sparkle and her smile can fill her face. Her love for the Lord pours out of her. Even as she reflects on her past, she expresses it with new-found confidence.
Though Darcy’s past includes family dysfunction, her connection to her siblings and her desire to mend broken relationships is evident. “I cherish all of my family. I have 4 brothers and sister (two sets of twins). My sister, Erica, has been praying for me for years, hoping for the moment that I would say yes to Jesus. I called her to share my experience with her. She was so excited for me! We talk about what it means to walk in faith, so I’m slowly getting to know the Lord, learning to recognize His whispers. I was even baptized in my church, West McKinley, about 2 months ago.
Today, it’s the little things that mean so much; the love, the laughter - - even the food! One of my favorite memories of my time spent in this program took place this past Christmas. The staff of RTC made breakfast for all of us; biscuits and gravy, chorizo, eggs, pancakes... there wasn’t anything they didn’t make! We were a huge family enjoying time with each other. The event reminded me of happy moments I shared with my grandparents when I was still very young. Grandpa took me everywhere. I have odd memories of going to the bank with him and taking loads of garbage to the County dump. In the summer he made it a point to buy me ice-cream cones. I don’t have a lot of clear memories from my youth, but I do cherish the ones that made me feel loved. So now, I’m finding those simple joys again, all because of Jesus and the Fresno Rescue Mission.”
Marcy's story appears in the March 2018 edition of Lighthouse News.